January

[mmtl-row bg_image="" bg_repeat="" bg_position="" bg_size="" id="" class=""][mmtl-col width="1/1"][mmtl-text id="" class="" space="medium"] I’m on the train right now, I’ve not spoken much about the train so far although its fair to say that for every day I’ve been at the Frankendael since May I’ve spent about two and a half hours on the train getting there and back. Yes I’m a commuter. Its quite frustrating, I don’t really like the train. Sometimes I can work, but mostly I just check stuff on my phone or sleep. I like that it gives time to listen to music, that’s probably the best bit about the journey. When the weather’s good or the light’s doing something unusual you can get a sense of place, a sense of distance. One of those spine tingling moments when reality seems to hit harder than usual. We all strive to reach these moments I guess, but they’re few and far between. I always think they’re something to do with déjà vous, a noise you almost recognise, a scent you’ve come across before, the way the reflected light sill warms the skin. When I worked as a postman in Rotterdam I used to deliver to this sun tan studio and every time I approached I got just such a feeling. I used to look forward to that part of the round especially just so I could get that sensation. You see their air conditioning was pumping the hot scented air out. I don’t know if it was deliberately perfumed or if it was coming from some of the tanning products inside. Whatever way this scent transported me instantly back to a nervous teenage excitement. I’ve had a cold this last week and its felt like my head’s been buried in an oily puddle, but today, today I feel alive again. [/mmtl-text][/mmtl-col][/mmtl-row]

December

[mmtl-row bg_image="" bg_repeat="" bg_position="" bg_size="" id="" class=""][mmtl-col width="1/1"][mmtl-text id="" class="" space="medium"] Five days ago a man came up to me here - at the benches in front of the house – I was waiting for Kate. She was late. It was the coldest day of the year so far and ice had formed on the canals and the dew on the fish and heron fence had frozen covering the chain in a glimmering dust. I’d rushed from the station to get a fire on before Kate arrived and was now waiting for her sitting on the bench. I don’t normally sit here, in front of the house because for some reason it makes me feel uncomfortable almost unwelcome. I was listening to a musician I’d coincidently reacquainted myself with earlier in the week. He’s from the part of Scotland I grew up in and played regularly in one of the bars where we used to hang out. We shared friends but didn’t really know each other. It must have been over 15 years since I’d heard him play. Back then it didn’t really interest me but now I was obsessed, I’d had him on repeat all week and the simple pop songs seemed to reverberate in me with a new emotional resonance. Perhaps I was just being nostalgic. Kate still hadn’t arrived so I waited some more. The man approached me and asked how many people can the house accommodate? ‘Can it fit 60 or 70 people?’ he asked. He’d come over from the De Nieuwe Ooster cemetery and was looking for somewhere to have coffee and tea with the group. A wake I assume though he didn’t specify. I told him the coach house is the biggest space in the building but he’d better talk to the people inside and pointed it out. Between the house and us was an A-frame chalkboard sign with the name Annie written on it. He asked which Annie? He’d been trying to contact an Annie for the last couple of weeks without success and though maybe it was she. Like me had he’d obviously just seen the hearse crossing the bridge with the funereal procession behind. I told him I didn’t know Annie but that Annie was a common name so it probably wasn’t her. He explained that giving what he’d been going though he couldn’t help but jump to conclusions. He left to ask inside about the space and I got up to walk towards the entrance bridge. As I passed in front of the house I began to think about just how many funerals and weddings I’d seen in the last months here at the Frankendael. Its not like it’s the only thing that happens in the house but its certainly a weekly occurrence. What is it that we look for in a place when we chose where to marry or where to commemorate the death of those close to us? Indeed the Frankendael seems an obvious choice, but why? The man passed on his way out wishing me a good day and I walked back to the bench trying to record my thoughts about the relevance of a place’s history and its aesthetic value in relation to ceremonies. The microphone was pointing down so listening back to this recording all you hear is the sound of footsteps on gravel. [/mmtl-text][/mmtl-col][/mmtl-row]

November

[mmtl-row bg_image="" bg_repeat="" bg_position="" bg_size="" id="" class=""][mmtl-col width="1/1"][mmtl-text id="" class="" space="medium"] The lion’s head at the edge of pond has been on my mind. Weather worn, the soft stone is loosing its definition as it slowly melts into the pond below and I can’t help but admire this stubborn resistance against the changes around it. I also can’t help making a connection with the sculpture of Dionysus on the front side of the house, where a leopard skin hangs nonchalantly draped over his shoulder. The leopards’ head coming to rest in the small of Dionysus’s back. Looking upwards, the leopards’ look of patient boredom is aimed through the house back towards the pond. What do these two symbolic big cats have to say to each other, and more importantly what do they have to say about us? Are they still symbols of power and subjection or has their stubborn resistance recast them? For some reason when I was considering how to work with the fence around this pond over summer I decided to go to Artis zoo. I though seeing these animals for real might give some answers. Answers as to why their presence seems increasingly relevant to me. As to why they seem to suddenly be subverting a dominant logic of aesthetic harmony. Logic embedded deep within the Frankendael and re-enacted through its place in the contemporary leisure economy. Yet the big cat encloses offered no clues, in fact it was not until I’d seen the whole zoo and was disappointedly meandering towards the exit when I stumbled across a new piece to the puzzle. A line, almost a chain, of herons sat perched atop the fence at the edge of the aquatic bird enclosure. Clearly their opportunistic attitude brought them there. Some might see them as a pest, an unwanted and uncontrolled element only here to snatch the fish from the birds belonging to the enclosure. But their persistence, staying put almost to the point of intimidating passers by, made them seem more like they were actually part of the enclosure. Were they the real fence, the real boundary? Do they define an edge between what is being acted out within the fiction of the zoo and what is being enacted in the drama of reality? One thing was sure, I wanted to bring these birds into dialogue with the Frankendaels’ big cats. [/mmtl-text][/mmtl-col][/mmtl-row]

October

[mmtl-row bg_image="" bg_repeat="" bg_position="" bg_size="" id="" class=""][mmtl-col width="1/1"][mmtl-text id="" class="" space="medium"] There’s a sculpture… it’s standing on its own… at the end of one of the central axis alleys of the garden, adjacent to the pond. A classically detailed plinth supports this representation of a man holding an instrument: a small harp, maybe a lyre. This makes me think it’s meant to be the figure of Orpheus though I can’t be sure. Still, Orpheus, a symbol of the power of culture over nature would seem to make sense in such a location. He’s stood there on his plinth looking away to the side. Not down the ally to see who’s coming, but has turned his head away to the right. Chin cocked slightly upwards he appears to be looking nowhere. A gaze of indifference or boredom. This laissez-faire musician seems preoccupied but not by his music. I feel he’s not really here…. I look again at him. He doesn’t look back. My questions go unanswered. He arouses an instinct of sorrow and frustration in me. What is he really doing there? Is he there to evoke a way of framing my experience in this garden: a way of placing an experience within an abstract context? Is he saying that we have the possibility to form nature in any way we want? Perhaps... but his distraction makes me wonder if he’s not grown tired of such power, being so separated from the reality of the world. What is he longing for? As the flies chart their rectilinear flight paths around his crumbling torso and the spiders spin their traps beneath his chin, the pleasing feeling starts to dawn on me that his authority might be starting to wean. [/mmtl-text][/mmtl-col][/mmtl-row]

September

[mmtl-row bg_image="" bg_repeat="" bg_position="" bg_size="" id="" class=""][mmtl-col width="1/1"][mmtl-text id="" class="" space="medium"] In conversation the other day I was asked how visitors to the garden would know I was working here at the Frankendael, in what way my presence would be visible? At first I was a bit confused…. in a normal exhibition set up the presence of the artist is by proxy through their artwork. But here, where I will be engaging with the house and garden over the course of two years, the daily position of the artist could become fundamental. So I’ve been thinking a lot about that conversation since; about how the works I am making here come into being and how that process becomes visible. In the first instance it could be a question of from what position am I working, what’s the nature of my relationship with the context? For sure the starting point is to embed my practice here but what does an embedded practice really mean and what does such an artistic choice imply? In a way I think the primary question is whether your work comes from inside or outside the social context. If I’m going to be working here I could be working from inside the house, I’ve been offered space within the offices, but what would that imply? Certainly it would be amongst the staff, but perhaps too close, or too far from getting the soil under my nails. I could stick to working in the garden as I’ve mostly been doing, but that’s really impractical, nowhere to put my stuff and under all weathers. Or I could work from my Rotterdam studio using the Frankendael as a location but would mean being too distant as if flying in to plan interventions? Somewhere in-between then; perhaps between house and garden. A position entangled physically and socially in the Frankendael undergrowth. This makes me think of putting a shed in the garden. Perhaps in one of the ‘wilderness’ areas: as in behind the hedge. There’s an area beneath a yew tree…. where the chicken coops are. That could be the place. A shed: a shed as a studio…. a place to work from physically and socially. [/mmtl-text][/mmtl-col][/mmtl-row]

August

[mmtl-row bg_image="" bg_repeat="" bg_position="" bg_size="" id="" class=""][mmtl-col width="1/1"][mmtl-text id="" class="" space="medium"] In the middle of the garden is a small pond. It’s round. No, circular, with a brick edging. There’s a ring of planting around it which looks like… well, I can see some sort of… hmm… actually I have no idea what that is. It’s all died back anyway, not yet come out for spring. There’s a small fence made from wooden poles and a thin green metal mesh. The fence is probably about 40 to 45cm high. At one of the edges is a section of brick wall with a stone-carved lion’s head. I think this is probably a fountain because there is some piping in the pond which leads to the back of the lion’s head. Let me see… yes, unplugged, probably why it’s not working. The level of the water in the pond is quite low. Looks like there are some lilies in it and a lot of green vegetation around, dense.   The pond is an all seeing eye in the middle of the garden, centrally located, stretching in all directions at the crossing of the two main axis of the garden. But this is just in plan, so perhaps it behaves more like of a ‘node’, if you put it like that… or then not really, it could be a void, empty.   You’ve got the symbolism of the lions head… oh there’s a butterfly, first butterfly I’ve seen this year… the lions head is pointed back towards the house which, if it were not such a symbol of authority, if were actually about the untamed lion that would be something. One of the poles has fallen over and is leaning in towards the centre of the pond. Maybe my job is to restore this fence. Should I just fix it or replace it with something else? The current fence sort of makes the pond disappear. What is it doing? If it is a barrier, what does it contain? Is it stopping you falling in or is it stopping what’s happening inside of getting out. Inside or outside, whose park and garden really is this, yes this fence, this small fence here is where I’m going to start. [/mmtl-text][/mmtl-col][/mmtl-row]